Change of Heart......

In the past until a couple of days ago I wasn't a Kendrick Lamar fan. I just couldn't stand his voice but I knew he wasn't complete trash like a lot of the new people in hip-hop/rap. Well the past couple of days I listened to his newest work which is "Section .80" and I have had a change of heart and I am now a fan of his. His mindset of not being into the BS that a lot of rappers and society in general are into is what makes me respect him not only as a rapper but as a man too. I like "A.D.H.D." and I really like 'Keisha's Song" from Section .80.....but as a whole the CD is very good and I will look into some of his older stuff. I'm glad I found someone else to listen to that is new other than Big K.R.I.T. hahaha

My dilemma......

I have a dilemma, well maybe not a dilemma but more of a situation I think I am in and will be in for quite some time....see the thing is I have made a promise with God to live by his word and not have sex before marriage...the thing about that is that in this day and age I feel that people view that in a negative light. I feel that girls/women and people in general around my age think that sex is needed in a relationship. My problem is that I almost feel ashamed/afraid to tell someone I would be interested in dating what feels like a "deep dark secret" of me not having sex before marriage. I feel like girls, even ones that don't have sex every other night, might be turned away because of that. This sucks because I am not going to change how I feel or break that promise I made with God. I have even met some "Christians" that are okay with having sex before marriage which makes it even worse because they I would think would be in the same boat as I am but they have seemed to jump ship. I think today's culture has gotten the majority of people to think that without sex you can't express love to your significant other.......so prettty much that's my dilemma/situation